I always wanted to marry Jake. Our relationship was so much fun and I was happier than I’d ever been. But awhile after getting engaged, I started to freak out. I wondered if me being afraid/nervous was a sign that it was a mistake, which made me even more afraid. I tried to talk to anyone I could to make sense of it. I always saw girls on Instagram constantly posting their wedding day countdowns and cutesy photos with their husbands-to-be and I compared myself to them. If I wasn’t acting like that, how could it be right?And one day, I realized being scared is OK. Not having a countdown is OK. Not having rose pedal cheesy photoshoots with my significant other is OK. Because if you are truly thinking about what marriage is, and what it entails, being nervous is normal. It is a big deal. I had to eventually take a deep breathe and realize how amazing and kind Jake is, how lucky I am to be with him and how many exciting things were ahead of us. I understood it was a big life change and sometimes when we shift into such different seasons of our lives we might get afraid. But some of the best things in life are truly on the other side of fear. My wedding day was THE HAPPIEST day ever. I have not regretted it once. I love what my life is now. And honestly, it’s not too different like I thought it might be. I just have a different last name and always get to hang out with my best friend (it’s awesome). So I want any other brides to be to know that if you are nervous, it will be okay! You aren’t crazy for feeling overwhelmed. Soon you will be partying like we did on our wedding day and off to an amazing honeymoon (just be careful not to get food poisoning… like us, haha) having the time of your life. I love you Jacob Porter Berrett and our wedding day was everything I could have wanted and more!